I just want to say that I am soooo sorry that I haven't been posting recently. My family's computer broke, so now my desktop computer is the home desktop computer, so I have little to no privacy any more. My dad or my mom is constantly looking over my shoulder, saying, "Are you done with the computer yet? I need to check something..." grrrrr. As per usual, when I leave this little haven, the bigbadscary food demons come back. I have been keeping the intake to 700 to 800 calories a day, but it's awful. I'm not losing weight, and I haven't for a few weeks. I hate hate hate it! Why am I such a failure?!? I want to be thin. I need to be thin. I looked at myself in the mirror the other day and started crying at what I saw. I'm fat fat fat fat fat when all I want to be is a delicate little nymph.
Intake today....
Breakfast:
- 1/2 of a tofu scramble (190 calories)
- 1 blood orange (70 calories)
- Fage yogurt and raisins (228 calories....ouch)
- Seaweed snacks (30 calories)
I have been catching up on all of your recent updates, and I must say that you are inspiring little loves, did you know that? I love you all <3
So, recent news in my life....I was lamenting before how I wasn't going to be able to go to Russia but GUESS WHAT???? I'm going :D It makes me so happy.
I need to get out of this town. I need to get out of high school. I just keep telling myself just a few more months, then you'll be on the other side of the country......
More updates from me later. I'm sorry that this is such a boring post, but my sister will be home any minute now, so I need to log off.
Let me hear your voices.
Stay strong <3
I just started following you today but I want to let you know I support you and feel for you cos I know what these horrible but yet sometimes wonderful :S diseases do to us and at the moment I have no intention of recovery either :)
ReplyDeletebe strong xxx