Yes, yes, I know, I stole this idea from the lovely Ell (if you are not following her, you should. She is one of the most lovely human beings on the planet). She was such an inspiration, so starting tomorrow I am going to do a one week long liquid fast.
I just went and weighed myself between ^that paragraph and this one, and I'm actually crying. Well, crying is not exactly how I'd describe it.....sobbing is probably a better word. Trembling with horror. Biting my lip in agony. I'm so disappointed in myself. I want to cut, but I can't find my knife and I think W hid it from me. I'm mad that he did that, he can't control things like that. I need some sort of release right now. Oh god. How could I have let this happen?
Words can't even describe the state of despair I'm in right now. I love you girlies, I promise I'll be back on track soon. No more despairing posts, the next time I post I'll be shining and strong, I promise you all <3
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a liquid fast sounds splendid - mind if I do it with you? :)
ReplyDeleteI wouldn't go nearly as far as the planet! Thank you ever so much. This post has made me feel ridiculously special. I'm so glad you've decided to try it! And the number you weigh initially really doesn't matter. You'll knock that down in no time. Just to let you know, I stayed under 350 cals most days, but allowed myself 500. So that's what I'd recommend, my love :). Can't wait to see how it goes! <3
ReplyDeletePlease don't hurt yourself beautiful. I'm thankful that you have W around looking out for you. love love love x x x
ReplyDeleteGood luck with the fast, remember stay strong!! It will all be worth it in the end <3 Please don't cut xx
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