As usual, when I start trying to restrict, I get really nervous and just end up fasting, which just ends in a binge over the weekend. Unacceptable. I need to slowly decrease so I can maintain this. I had 633 calories for dinner last night, completely horrible. The only reason it ended up being okay was that I hadn't eaten anything all day already, otherwise it would have been way too much.
As it is, I still hate myself. It's like a robot feeding me, I feel like I have no control over my movements, suddenly there's food going in my mouth and I can't stop it.