Haven't eaten anything today except for half of a grapefruit this morning. 60 calories. Plus the 36 calories of supplements. 96 calories total. It's verging on evening and my stomach is making loud noises and my head is starting to hurt. But I am NOT hungry. Even if my body is, I'm not. Stupid body, can't ever do what it's told.
Sometimes I think it's easier to just fast rather than eat so little. So much temptation to just keep eating. But I can be strong. I just have to keep my hands busy. I'm currently organizing all of the snacks that I have in my dorm room. Sorting them by size and type of snack (sweet or salty), and then by caloric content. Do any of you do that? Store tons of food somewhere not so that you can eat it, but so you can have it perfectly and meticulously organized? Maybe I should see someone about this, because that sounds like OCD to me. Ah, well, I always knew I had that, I just never made it official. I used to wash my hands for almost an hour, scraping away at the surface layer of skin until i had erratic scabs on the back of my hands. That's not normal. Oops.
After I finish organizing, I'm going to make pointless flashcards for my biology and chemistry classes. Then I am going to write myself some quizzes to take. Then maybe I'll vacuum.
See how good I am at the whole distraction thing? They should give me an award.
Love you guys.
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I'm scared for you beautiful girl <3
ReplyDeleteJust keep busy :) With anything! I organise my food in the cupboards at home too, everything has its own little place :) Keep going strong, your doing so so well! xx
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