Am I back?

It's been years since I've been back here. I am so scared. But I also can't stay strong anymore. There is too much going on. I can't keep eating "normally". Fucked up that disordered eating is "easier" for me. Was massively triggered by the fact that I've yo-yo'd down and then back up a total of 20 pounds this year.

Are people still here? Am I just talking to the void of the internet as usual? Maybe it's for the best.